Hope?

Yesterday was miserable. It sucked from start to finish, with few breaks along the way. At the end of the day I thanked God it was over. What was ironic was that all the stuff I would say I hated about it won't be things that will bug me in a few days. They weren't that big of a deal.

I get pretty overwhelmed by the ways people decide and are tricked into deciding not to care about each other. It gets me down. Real down. I feel like I'm an idiot for even trying to care. It's like I'm wasting peoples "precious" time. Every single day I see more and more ways that our culture encourages us to look out for ourselves and no one past our immediate families. Get yours and screw everyone else. That's what we're told from the minute we can breath on our own. When one suggests that such lies are in fact lies, people are ready to call you "hippie" or "gay" or a variety of other misguided condescending names. I feel a dense fog of hate looming over us everyday. If you can't at least see my point, you're not paying attention.

It'll suck the love and hope right out of you. I recall praying "Jesus, I can't feel your love." But I think the fact that I can still acknowledge that things are screwed up, that I can't just "get in line" is a beautiful example of His love. There's that hope. No matter what happens, I know that life is not currently the way that God intended it. No matter how much I want to give up and believe the lies, I can't. Jesus' love is too convincing, too overwhelmingly perfect.

I remember John 15 where Jesus says "love each other" at least 5 times. In one instance He directly says "This is my command: Love each other as I have loved you... You are my friends if you do what I command" (vs 12, 14). This takes inhuman amounts of patience. No wonder people are atheists.

God is good.